Survivor

I keep on thinking and wonder why I have to live in this close space…
A dark paradise that revolves around with a slow phase…
Is this what my destiny has to unfold?
Do I have to travel this endless road?
Nobody can survive here…
No one understand this sacrifice I am going through
I am entrapped in this darkness full of fear, evilness and sadness…
I am begging for seraphim to come down from paradise and help me…
Grave as I can see this space that surrounds me
So quiet, so dull, it is killing the some question but nobody dares to answer…
I have passion for beauty obsession for eternity, courage for long existence, and thirst for sweet success.
Lamentations were just wasted their ears were closed forever
I want to be understood, but they already left for good
Now, it’s just me, my body, my mind, and my soul…
Free to escape in this grave where nobody survived, only but me…GLJ

By on By

An old tree as I stood by
I saw someone such a guy
I’ve never felt like this before
Love at first sight did it occur

I didn’t expect that we will meet
One day is such a coincidence
That we will be like good friends
And lovers till the end

No one is beyond compare
That love we share everyday
And I make a few sights
By on by we said goodbye

How Long

How long shall I travel in this big world just to see you?
How long shall I buy all your stuff just to hear and see your voice and face?
How long will be the time that you will meet someday?
How long shall I wait to hear you that I’m your friend?
How long shall I wait in this big world?
How long! How long!
Until I sing all the love song…JDC

Friewndship Is All That Matters

You never I knew I love you
You thought I was kidding when I say I do
I was just a friend who watches you from a far
Like a child wishing on the bright star
I never meant to feel this, I just did
This feeling I always kept and hide
I never want to see you walk away
My love and affection to you I Lay
I can’t hold on to this feeling forever
Because with you I want to stay
I am scared you might leave if you’ll know
Friendship is still that matters
But everyday this feelings grows

I will always love you even if you don’t
Sister, is what you see in me, I am hurt
Because I realize your heart I will never get
Even though my dreams for us start to set
It’s me dreaming alone again…
I never knew how to say it
But truly all things I’ve said was meant

My heart now bids goodbye,
For I never felt you were feeling the same way I do
I wish I knew you were dreaming alone like me
Because you were terrified I might leave….

We departed each other’s hand,
Without seeing a clear view of what you feel,
Because “friendship is still that matters”
You said…GLJ

Afraid to Love Again

I always see your face in a blue mood
Is it because you have a heavy load?
Or you’re just experienced a sour romance
I feel like involving myself to you at once
This urge of knowing you gets stronger everyday
I just hope you’ll turn your head on my way
Until we finally get acquainted one day
A strange feeling came rushing through my body
I’m so confused at this peculiar feeling
Emanating from constantly asking if you have a fling
And inquiring if you have a serious relationship
This not built in me a reputation of a flip
I don’t dare myself to discover why
‘Cause I would rather tell you a lie
Than to let you know the real reason
That once made we a miserable person
I just want you to be close to me
Because this burden seems too heavy
And could you answer if I ask you this way
Would you be my friend starting this day? .. ALA

Love at First Sight

I still remember, since the day I saw you
I told myself that the person, I’ve been looking for is you
You are my soul mate, you’ve my life
And I want to spend the rest of my life with you

But how can I reach you, you’re too far from me
I know you, but you don’t know me
I missed you, but you don’t miss me
And I love you, but you don’t love me

Can this happen that you & me will meet again,
Can this be real that you & me will be together again
Can this be real the you & me will fall in love with each other
Or can this be a dream that will never come true

If you only knew that I want to see you
If you only knew how I love you
If you’re only here with me
You’ll know how I’m so happy to see you

The most special person in my heart
That I always keep in my heart
Even you don’t know me, let me know you
‘Coz that’s the only way to be close to you

I hope that time will come for you and me
I never give up, I’ll do anything for you
T o show you how much I love you
Because life is worthless without you..JSV

Love Unfolding

Just this morning
When I saw you there standing
All of a sudden I felt this strange feeling again
A feeling I thought I’ve finally gotten over with

My cold hands started to shake
And my face turned red…was I blushing?
Have I become too transparent?
For my friends started teasing me!

Yes, I kept you in my heart for so long
I was able to keep you in silence
Was able to suppress this feeling
Until this morning

Should I go on adoring you?
Although deep in my heart
I know you don’t feel the same way?
Must I stop this foolishness (If I call it as such?)

Now that my friends know about it
For you’ve brought back this genuine smile on my lips
You’ve made me feel this ecstasy
Which only love can bring…RE

Emotions

Reasons for my world to live
The love that my lonely heart could give
The every life of my deepest soul,
And the most wonder thing at all
I never doubt of what I feel,
I know it’s true, I know it’s real
You give my poem its lovely rhyme
You’re my dream beyond place and time
Cherish those memories and fames of you
Those dreams won’t come true
My love that is true and divine
Like the living scent of the endless mine
Heartily I prayed for this feeling
So it will live beyond its dreaming
To be with you in the realm of reality
Not only with the stories of fantasy
Endless ocean and heaven couldn’t meet
The story of your love that never exist
Only in my mind where love persists
Love is the life for us to live
It is thee feeling for us to keep
But it will be the lost I never regret
The most wonderful thing I can’t forget
Like the sun in the land of morning
Or the moon that sleeps in the place of dreaming
I would never be tired of loving you forever
Though it seems we will never be together
Emptiness would be my life without you
Death would be my dream that won’t come true
For you the life of my very soul
Indeed, the most wonderful dream of all…SMF

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I thought I could never love someone before
I thought love will just hurt someone
I thought love will never happen to me
But I was wrong
At the time I first saw you
Oh my heart beats like a drum!
I can’t keep it shut
I can’t stop my heart loving you
As time goes by
My love grow stronger
You made my life brighter and meaningful
And keep my world revolving
Oh Baby how I wish I could see and meet you
But how could that be?
If you’re far, far from me,
But, you’ll be here close to me,
Close to my heart
Baby, what can I do to make you fall in love with me?
What can I do to be there at your side?
And promise my love will last forever
If I hear you would have a concert
I’ll keep all my money and save it
Just to buy your tickets
But how can I be there?
I don’t know how to get there?
Even my friends don’t know how
Oh, I feel like I lost half of my life
But it didn’t stop my world to revolve
‘Coz you were still there on my radio
Singing my favorite songs,
You were still there on my television
Watching your video,
You were still there on my computer
Watching your live concerts
You were still there on my magazine
Reading some facts about you,
You were always there
Winning all awards,
You were always there
Always be there
Here in my heart
I Love You!...AS

A Wonderful Tonight

A wonderful night has just begun
For everyone of us
A night full of lessons to learn
A day that’s made to burn
It’s a time for relaxation
A time for discussion
And a night of progression
For a life’s better vision…MSA

A New Day with Me

Remember me when nights grow cold,
When leaves fall from trees like snow
Remember me when your nights are long
When stars in the sky won’t twinkle at all
Hold my hand when your world seems to stop
When there’s no more care, no more love;
Take my hand I’ll walk with you
I will be the sun that’ll shine your days anew.
When everyone around grows too fast
Everyone had turned their backs
My friend, do not weep
A new day with me is yours to keep…HL

I Finally Found You

I’m searching in many places
Looking for someone’s face
Still no one is out there
Not even a little care
Finding people everywhere
With something of love for me to share
Still I don’t have the answer
And there is a missing laughter
Then you looked at me
And you said: “Don’t you worry!”
I lose the fear inside my mind
Now I know the answer I find
Now I know what I’m looking for
Coz I never felt like this before
I finally found someone like you
With a pure heart like you do
One thing you need to know
That I will never let you go
You and I are meant to be
You are my destiny…RI

Will you be Mine?

Can you please tell me what can I do?
I can’t control myself from
Falling in love with you
I think I’ll go crazy
Is it love at first sight?
I don’t know what to do
‘Coz it gives me a fright
When I think of you
I don’t know what to do
‘Coz its you I wish to have
If only I could tell you
But there are things
That word can’t say
If you want to show it
Express it with you own
Is it okay with you?
‘Coz everything seems to be
But if given a chance
Will you be mine?...BJM

A Secret Crush

As days go by
I feel something strange
As I look into your face
My heart beats are not the same
What is that thing in you?
That makes me feel this way
Is it your cute face?
That attracts me
I want to know your name
For I want to be your friend
But I don’t know how
And beside I feel ashamed
How I wish that someday
You’ll come and tell me
Just like what I feel
You’re got a secret crush on me… AMH

Love

They say it’s a “GOD” given gift
But can make you happy and make you sick
They say it’s like a thief
That enters your heart although you forbid it
They say it conquers everything
And the bets reason why we’re living
But sometimes it is a dangerous thing
That leads you to temptation and sins
Love is so wonderful
For it is the best healer when we talk of hearts would
But everyone must be careful
For it is also the best heartbreaker anytime at all
They say it’s their hearts treasure
But some say it’s their mind pleasure
Other says it’s just an illusion
That lies in the mind of every person
Love is like that….Love is like this…
It all depends on the person who feels it
But I am only sure of just one thing….
When I fall in love, its everlasting….VJN

You

You brighten up my day like sunlight
Enlightens up my night like moonlight
Those eyes shining out like starlight
In my journey, your are my candle light
You never let me down stands at my side
Lifted me up just to make me feel alright
You taught me how to fight in this cruel life
And in this random world you make me alive
You’re always there for me saving me from a tide
Teaching me to face everything and not to hide
You’re the one who make it right in every mistake I ride
And when I needed you most, your arms are open wide
You’re always there beside me in my sleepless night
Just trying to ease the pain that I felt inside
I’m so glad that I have you here in my life
And I was blessed coz you’re my angel, my guide... JDR

Going Away

I watch you across the street
And walk away from the last time
Trying to remember the good times
Knowing it would be important later on
The way a smile could begin
From the corner of your lips
The way you drape your arm
Over my shoulder
The way you laughed over my silly jokes
The way you apologized for making me cry
This going away I will remember
For many years to come
And the pain will be the same
For many years to come
I wish that men could discover
A drug that could deaden
The memory of even just
Your hands…DNZ

To the Man I Promised to Love Forever

When I look into your eyes, I see a gentle spirit that lives within your heart I see a man with inner strength and depth molded by years of experience. When I’m lost, a look into your eyes would lend me home I calm the storm within me.

When I hear your voice, I hear the whisper of a wish and prayer that our love would never end…that it will transcend time and space. When you say “I Love You”, it touches me in ways no other words would ever touch me again your voice is like an angel’s song that soothes my wounded soul. In times of grief and sorrow you always find the right words to comfort me. My joys are yours and so are my pains.

When I see your face, I see your beauty I grace and know they have grown stronger with every life you have lived. Your face reflects a bittersweet part and holds so much for the future. It’s an honest and trusting face with the boyish quality that is so rare in a world that makes you grow old before our time. In my lonely moments I reach for you I hold your face in my memory and I feel surge of energy. Your smile lights up my day in a cloudy world I chases the shadows from the corners on my mind.

When you hold me, it lightens my day I kisses my worries away you have the way like magic of making me feel so peaceful, severe I contented with my world and everything around me. Sometimes, when I’m drifting away from our dreams and the road seems rough and winding, a gentle touch would bring home.

When you love me, you give me one of the greatest gifts in the world, my heart swells with gladness when you proclaim your love for me. Your love has tough me that joy and intimacy are possible. Your love, trust and respect touch me in ways where in worlds are not enough to describe how I feel.

Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for staying with me through the many elements of love the soft wind and rains of comfort, shared experiences, laughter, companionship, hurts and disappointments. Thank you for helping me grows as a person, as a woman and if God’s will as your partner in life.
Above all, I thank GOD for leading me to find you. I know I have spent every life before searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always home together.

I know it hasn’t always been easy, and I know it won’t always be. But loving you is worth any hard time we have to go through, sometimes, I close my eyes and smile because I never dreamed my life could be like this and it’s all because of you and sometimes, I realize that I don’t tell you enough that I Love You, but I always will.

Reality in Falling Inlove

Relationships can never be perfect,You can never force your partner to be faithful in the same way that a normal relationship should be. What's important is at the end of the day you find each other side by side and your happy knowing that's he/she's yours.We need to enjoy the relationship while its there cause if you waste your time in doubts and insecurities, you'll never appreciate how wonderful it is to fall inlove. Remember: to get hurt is a fact that we bargain when we choose to love.

How Tough Your Love?

How tough are you? When you found out that the person you love so much don’t love you anymore? Do you fight to win him back? Or just let him go?

How tough are you? To face tomorrow without him at your side? Wake up each morning knowing he is not yours anymore? Someone telling you how much he care and thinking of you everyday, that you are the one he wants to grow old with? Watching sunrise and sunset sitting in bench at the beach, Promise to love you and respect you for the rest of his life.

How tough are you? To face the reality that you’re all alone now? How to start tomorrow not thinking he’s already gone? With broken heart? Broken dreams? Will you cry and pretend to be happy putting smile on your lips but seeing sadness in eyes, or pick all the pieces of broken heart and make it whole again?

How tough are you? To see him happy with someone? Do you feel happy or sad because somehow you’re asking yourself what if? What if he’s still with me? Do I still make him happy and give smile on his face? Or feel misery with me?

How tough are you? To move on? Thinking that this is only a bad dream and wake up soon with smile on face and not hurting written all over your face. See tomorrow with the brighter side of life, and not afraid to love again….

My Own True Love

It’s started in huge crush

But ended up with true love

Never expected to feel this

But have to deal with it

First I want to hide

But you caught me in the act

I confess my love

But only care you have

Im easily to fall

But you’re hard to fall
I’m hard to forget

But you’re easily to forget

Started to give up

But still in fuss

Beginning to confuse

But still trying

I’ve waited patiently

But too proud to admit

And hoping you will love me

But keep on denying how you feel

Say I love you for the last time

Say I love you too for the first time

Tears falls down on my face

Atlast we give smile on each other face

One Lonely Night

Staring at the sky
This lonely night
Holding my pillow tight
Dreaming of you tonight

Hoping you’re here beside me
Giving the Love I need
Fill in the emptiness I feel
And Ease the pain inside of me

But you’re just a dream
That never comes true
Just an illusion
That will never be true

Faith on our Love

I keep telling myself
Your not for me

I dont deserve you

You don't deserve me

But faith brought us together

Even most of the time

You hurt me an intentional

Sometimes I ask myself

What if i let you go?

Does it makes me happy and free

Does it ease the pain and misery I feel

I hope its so easy to let go

Letting go of someone

Who Worth Figthing for

Because we love each other

And hold on the love we have

Having each other faith and understanding

Even in the worst situation

Were not Perfect, we commit mistakes

The only thing we can do for now

Believe on each others

Have Faith on our love

Im not like this

This is not the kind of love i gave before

He change me, I change him

I make him smile

He make me cry

Cry for the love he gave

He dont say it, but show it

In different ways he know

He teach me how to show my different emotion

Test my love and emotion

I learn a lot, Not only from him

Also in our relationship and situation

I dont expect anything in return
I love him unconditionally

Promise loving him forever

Its sounds crazy but its true

My love is true no doubt about it

This is the way i love him

Baby Love

This entry is dedicated to my Baby you know who you are..i want you to know that i miss you so much and i love you with all my heart. I wish i was there to play with you, sharing the laughter and give my shoulder when you cry. I was blessed to have you as my baby and love me unconditional...Hoping someday we hug each other...

Longing for You...

I tried to hide
Keep distance from you
Teach myself to ignore you
To be numb and cold
But you keep hunting me
Inside my heart, my mind and my soul
You're like a midnight Phantom
Thief in the night
See shadow under the moonlight
But I was wrong
I can't fight it anymore
The emptiness and longing for you
Ignore the feeling
Living each day
Pretending nothing happen
But can you see?
I look sad and miserable
My heart full of pain
The only thing i want now
To ease the pain i feel
I miss you
I'm longing for you
I miss the things we used to do
I hope missing you will end
Because i know your here with me again

Photoshop First Creation

My First entry to my new blogs, honestly im asking myself what im doing here? Hmmm This entry is dedicated to my friend Aleah whose studying photoshop and this is her first creation im so proud of her because she really want to learn on her own.